last night cheryl and i were talking about music and we got talking about song that you can feel on the top of your head: tickley head songs . . .
this is now one of the mixes coming with me on my trips this spring . . . iTunes kinda bugs, because if they aren't selling the song you want on your mix, they won't put it on your mix . . .
ombria mai fĂș by aria is missing . . . and i would have just put all of picture in an exhibition on, but i had to just choose one movement. this is the happiest and lightest, so it seemed to be a great place to start . . .
enjoy
Monday, 22 March 2010
Sunday, 21 March 2010
a weekend of great qi (chi)

this weekend has been one of the best on record. HEALTH INSURANCE REFORM just passed! the weather was stunningly perfect. i swam, road, and ran and did yoga twice. i gardened and planted pots of bulbs and even gave some bulbs away . . . spreading the wonder of gardening flowers.
here are some photos from today . . .
considering the lilies, well actually sweet peasi believe we planted over 50 pea seeds today
(which are just little dehydrated peas)

we brushed some of the kernels offand planted those too
we will see if it works
joe and i went on a 45 mile bike ride . . .on accident.
we thought doing the loop would be a little bit longer,
but turns out it was alot longer
supposedly i burnt 2102 KCAL
we stopped at the capitol to see the big anti-health insurance reform protestthere were about 100 people there

then we ran into a real protestthousands of protesters headed to the mall to demonstrate their
support immigration reform
i road by a group walking to the mall
sat up tall on my bike
and chanted "¡Si se puedes!
i got the whole group to start chanting
just a humble cyclist, doing her part
as we looped around and got inside of rock creek part,i was struck by the wabi sabi of the park
i learned about wabi sabi from the utne reader when i was living in kansas city
it was a perfect place for me to learn it.
i spent hours driving through the fields of kansas and nebraska
and the rolling grasslands in missouri and iowa
i think it is really beautiful
"Characteristics of the wabi-sabi aesthetic include
asymmetry, asperity, simplicity, modesty, intimacy,
and the suggestion of natural processes."
i think wabi-sabi is a good principal for me to be thinking about right now.
there is beauty in the imperfect.
we are all imperfect, yet all are beautiful
everyone has something to give
and everyone is in need of something.
for some reason i think this is going to be an important principal to carry with me to haiti.
i am not sure why . . .
hopefully i will be able to see the beauty in the process.
there is beauty in the process, even when it is painful.
Saturday, 20 March 2010
spring has sprung!
this weekend has been dedicated to getting ready to go to haiti. it has been hard to run errands! the weather is SO awesome.
so i have been spending some time in the garden. i think it helps me get ready to be in such a hard place. my garden is a place of peace for me. its also a place of wonder and awe. every year i am amazed when seeds spout up into plants. every year i worry that i am going to forget to do something and then the plants won't grow. but it is so simple, water the plants consistently . . . that is really about all you can do.
well that, and make sure you have good soil. it is the first rule of gardening -- $100 hole for a $10 tree. soil is key to everything. in fact, i would love to do some type of study to see how public health is affected by the quality of the soil the food comes from.
one of the best soil amendments is worm poop (castings). though scientists don't think they understand what is so beneficial fully, they do believe when waste is passed through the intestine of the worm, beneficial bacteria is collected in the matter.
the following photo essay -- entitled "worm wrangler" -- was a gift from gracy of houndstooth photography. (if you are interested in distinctive pet portraiture, check it out. she does not discriminate based on species or even phylum)


what is the deal with this worm??
we postulated that it had been cut in half and was regenerating
(if you click the above link, read the last paragraph . . . self splitting via centrifugal force?)






so i have been spending some time in the garden. i think it helps me get ready to be in such a hard place. my garden is a place of peace for me. its also a place of wonder and awe. every year i am amazed when seeds spout up into plants. every year i worry that i am going to forget to do something and then the plants won't grow. but it is so simple, water the plants consistently . . . that is really about all you can do.
well that, and make sure you have good soil. it is the first rule of gardening -- $100 hole for a $10 tree. soil is key to everything. in fact, i would love to do some type of study to see how public health is affected by the quality of the soil the food comes from.
one of the best soil amendments is worm poop (castings). though scientists don't think they understand what is so beneficial fully, they do believe when waste is passed through the intestine of the worm, beneficial bacteria is collected in the matter.
the following photo essay -- entitled "worm wrangler" -- was a gift from gracy of houndstooth photography. (if you are interested in distinctive pet portraiture, check it out. she does not discriminate based on species or even phylum)


what is the deal with this worm??we postulated that it had been cut in half and was regenerating
(if you click the above link, read the last paragraph . . . self splitting via centrifugal force?)

and if you are wondering. . . my tomato plants are doing amazingly well!
thanks for asking
thanks for asking





Friday, 19 March 2010
teabelly haiti update
as some of you may recall, immediately after the earthquake in haiti on jan 12, i was asked to go down and help with NGO coordination. i was told i was going to leave on wednesday, then on saturday, then wednesday, then saturday. . . it went on for about a month. in the meantime i was able to team-up with a women in our office of global health affairs and start an inter-agency working group on haitian health facilities. (you can see the work here: https://www.travax.com/scripts/HaitiAid/Default.aspx)
it was crazy! the group is over 100 people now with representative from WHO, PAHO, Google, Travax, crisis commons, ushahidi, harvard, emory, DOD, HHS, USAID, etc. we are going to write a paper for the lancet about our database. and the work we did is now being utilized by all sorts of gov't and NGO agencies. it is exciting. i think i might have done more by staying and chairing this group than had i gone.
but now, i am going. i am going to help the ministry of health and population (MSPP) start adopting the databases (one is an a master list of facilities with unique identifiers and the other is an inventory of capacity). we are going to go to the different districts and learn about how the NGO coordination was structured and identify what worked and did not work. we are hoping that from this trip we will be able to glean some helpful information that will support NGO coordination during future disasters. again, we are toying with publishing a paper on NGO coordination based on what we learn. i will share those lessons here on my blog, and a link to whatever paper is published in the future.
right now, my mind is pretty stressed about getting ready to go. i am leaving tuesday morning for new orleans for meetings on gulf coast recovery -- emphasizing how to address mental health issues and buoying up the community health centers. i leave wednesday night for miami where i will spend the night. thursday morning i will meet up with nadine gracia (the chief medical officer of the assistant secretary for health) and alyson (my former intern turned presidential management fellow, who is on rotation now in my office) and we will fly to haiti.
in haiti, alyson, nadine, and i will share a tent on the grounds of the embassy. even though we have been offered places to stay in Port au Prince, we are not allowed to due to the threat of another earthquake. apparently the chances of another earthquake is relatively high. they don't want us in a building that might collapse in an earthquake. i don't want to be in one of those buildings either. it will be kinda weird to be sharing a tent with colleagues. this is a whole new type of business trip for me.
we are also supposed to bring stuff so that we are relatively self-sufficient. so, i am going to bring a bunch of food bars, some potato chips, dehydrated fruit, and of course tea. should be interesting. there is apparently quite a shortage of food. we are able to get food at the embassy, but the lines are long and the food not yummy.
speaking of long lines, apparently there are only a couple of showers at the embassy for TDY'ers (Temporary Duty Assignment) to use. the lines are super long. it is also really hot about 100°F and super duper humid. the good news is that there is a lap pool! this means i will get to get clean and exercise at the same time :)! so relieved about that!!
we have been trying to talk with people in haiti since the earthquake. it is not easy. the internet barely works. i won't be able to post from there, but i will share photos and some of my experiences here when i get home.
my plan is to keep a daily journal. i am hoping that it will both help me process what i am experiencing and help me remember it.
nadine is a haitian american. she has family in haiti that she is close to. it is going to be an emotional trip for all of us, but i really feel for her and having to see her motherland so destroyed. it is going to be an intense trip.
i am both looking forward to it, and nervous about it.
i believe it will be a great place to practice being zen. my guess is it will be hard for me to make the time to take care of myself. but i am going to work hard and try and be disciplined about getting enough sleep; exercising; journaling; and eating regularly. it is all about balance. if i am not taking care of myself, i won't be able to be helpful to the haitian people. (this is just a little teabelly pep talk).
just to share a bit more, if you are still reading you are obviously interested . . .
on monday we had a meeting at the department to figure out strategies for rebuilding/building the haitian medical education system. it was an exciting meeting. needless to say, there is a HECK of a lot to do! it was closed to press, but the State department wrote this article to share with the embassies:
16 March 2010
U.S., Haiti Experts Plan to Rebuild Medical Education System
January earthquake killed 73 doctors and nurses, damaged 30 hospitals
Among the more than 250,000 who died as a result of the 7.0-magnitude earthquake that struck near Port-au-Prince January 12 were 73 doctors, nurses and other health care providers. Thirty of Haiti’s 62 hospitals were severely damaged and more than 500 medical students are unable to finish their studies.
Haiti’s most urgent needs, said Dr. Gabriel Thimothe, director-general of Haiti’s Ministry of Health, include temporary or prefabricated buildings, training for emergency physicians, help getting medical students back in school, and psychological support for some of Haiti’s most beleaguered citizens.
“One challenge we are facing now,” Thimothe said, is “to provide psychological support to more than 4,000 people [with mental disorders]. Mental health was not a priority for the Ministry of Health but now it’s a critical issue to be addressed.”
For the nearly 10 million people in Haiti, he added, there are two doctors per 10,000 people and only 1.8 nurses. Fewer than 300 newly trained doctors per year graduate from medical school, and many leave to practice medicine in countries where salaries are higher.
Part of what is needed in Haiti, said Dr. Rubens Pamies, a meeting co-chair and vice chancellor for academic affairs at the University of Nebraska Medical Center, is to rebuild educational and treatment facilities with the technical backbone to accommodate 21st-century treatment and education, including telemedicine.
COMMITMENT TO REBUILD
The meeting, hosted by the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services’ Office of Minority Health, arose from discussions with physicians in the Haitian diaspora about the devastation to Haiti’s medical-education system and the great loss of life among its doctors, nurses and medical and nursing students.
Earthquake-damaged homes are seen in the Canape Vert neighborhood of Port-au-Prince March 14.
Bringing greetings from Secretary Sebelius, Petrou added, “Since the earthquake President Obama asked us to pool our resources to do everything we could to be helpful. Hosting this meeting is just one small thing we’d like to do to give you the opportunity to talk together and try to address these problems.”
During the meeting, the experts shared recent experiences and explored short- and long-term needs and strategies for rebuilding Haiti’s medical education and training system, including acute and urgent needs, undergraduate and graduate medical education, infrastructure building, long-term needs and future collaborations. The experts also began work on a system that will help coordinate the broad range of international help on the ground in Haiti.
“We all appreciate very much the need to transition to recovery and to building a long-term, very sustainable infrastructure for health and health care in Haiti,” said Dr. Nicole Lurie, HHS assistant secretary for preparedness and response. “Certainly medical education and health professions education is a huge part of that, and the losses to the medical education system in Haiti make that even more important.”
NEXT STEPS
At the end of the day-long meeting, said Dr. Garth Graham, HHS deputy assistant secretary for minority health, the experts agreed on a collaborative approach to rebuilding across schools of medicine, public health and allied health professions such as nursing and pharmacy. The group also agreed on the need to engage other nongovernmental and philanthropic organizations for resource support.
“At the end of the meeting, participants agreed to form steering work groups for undergraduate education, graduate education and systems and infrastructure building,” Graham said. “These three work groups will continue to develop and refine plans and strategies.”
A key outcome, he added, was an agreement to work collaboratively to implement strategies formulated during the meeting.
“We have to move forward despite this tragedy,” Thimothe told the attendees. “What I hope is that we can work with all of you around the table, all the universities and agencies that have an effective and quick response to needs which are very critical in Haiti. With this strong partnership, this commitment, we can move forward in Haiti.”
More information about the Haiti earthquake and disaster response is available through the U.S. Agency for International Development’s Haiti page and the Haiti Earthquake Fact Sheet #44 (PDF, 56KB).
(This is a product of the Bureau of International Information Programs, U.S. Department of State. Web site: http://www.america.gov)
Thursday, 4 March 2010
a meditation from e.e. cummings
i am pretty sure the first time i read this i was in high school. i am not totally sure how i ended up reading it tonight, but i am surprised at how, after 20 years, i still connect and learn from these words. enjoy! (this is from his introduction to "new poems")
"The poems to come are for you and for me and are not for mostpeople-- it's no use trying to pretend that mostpeople and ourselves are alike. Mostpeople have less in common with ourselves than the squarerootofminusone. You and I are human beings;mostpeople are snobs. Take the matter of being born. What does being born mean to mostpeople? Catastrophe unmitigated. Socialrevolution. The cultured aristocrat yanked out of his hyperexclusively ultravoluptuous superpalazzo,and dumped into an incredibly vulgar detentioncamp swarming with every conceivable species of undesirable organism. Mostpeople fancy a guaranteed birthproof safetysuit of nondestructible selflessness. If mostpeople were to be born twice they'd improbably call it dying--
you and I are not snobs. We can never be born enough. We are human beings;for whom birth is a supremely welcome mystery,the mystery of growing:which happens only and whenever we are faithful to ourselves. You and I wear the dangerous looseness of doom and find it becoming. Life,for eternal us,is now'and now is much to busy being a little more than everything to seem anything,catastrophic included.
Life,for mostpeople,simply isn't. Take the socalled standardofliving. What do mostpeople mean by "living"? They don't mean living. They mean the latest and closest plural approximation to singular prenatal passivity which science,in its finite but unbounded wisdom,has succeeded in selling their wives. If science could fail,a mountain's a mammal. Mostpeople's wives could spot a genuine delusion of embryonic omnipotence immediately and will accept no substitutes.
-luckily for us,a mountain is a mammal. The plusorminus movie to end moving,the strictly scientific parlourgame of real unreality,the tyranny conceived in misconception and dedicated to the proposition that every man is a woman and any woman is a king,hasn't a wheel to stand on. What their synthetic not to mention transparent majesty, mrsandmr collective foetus,would improbably call a ghost is walking. He isn't a undream of anaesthetized impersons, or a cosmic comfortstation,or a transcedentally sterilized lookiesoundiefeelietastiesmellie. He is a healthily complex,a naturally homogenous,citizen of immorality. The now of his each pitying free imperfect gesture,his any birth of breathing,insults perfected inframortally milleniums of slavishness. He is a little more than everything,he is democracy;he is alive:he is ourselves.
Miracles are to come. With you I leave a remembrance of miracles: they are somebody who can love and who shall be continually reborn,a human being;somebody who said to those near him,when his fingers would not hold a brush "tie it to my hand"--
nothing proving or sick or partial. Nothing false,nothing difficult or easy or small or colossal. Nothing ordinary or extraordinary,nothing emptied or filled,real or unreal;nothing feeble and known or clumsy and guessed. Everywhere tints childrening,innocent spontaneaous,true. Nowhere possibly what flesh and impossibly such a garden,but actually flowers which breasts are amoung the very mouths of light. Nothing believed or doubted;brain over heart, surface:nowhere hating or to fear;shadow,mind without soul. Only how measureless cool flames of making;only each other building always distinct selves of mutual entirely opening;only alive. Never the murdered finalities of wherewhen and yesno,impotent nongames of wrongright and rightwrong;never to gain or pause,never the soft adventure of undoom,greedy anguishes and cringing ecstasies of inexistence;never to rest and never to have;only to grow.
Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question"
"The poems to come are for you and for me and are not for mostpeople-- it's no use trying to pretend that mostpeople and ourselves are alike. Mostpeople have less in common with ourselves than the squarerootofminusone. You and I are human beings;mostpeople are snobs. Take the matter of being born. What does being born mean to mostpeople? Catastrophe unmitigated. Socialrevolution. The cultured aristocrat yanked out of his hyperexclusively ultravoluptuous superpalazzo,and dumped into an incredibly vulgar detentioncamp swarming with every conceivable species of undesirable organism. Mostpeople fancy a guaranteed birthproof safetysuit of nondestructible selflessness. If mostpeople were to be born twice they'd improbably call it dying--
you and I are not snobs. We can never be born enough. We are human beings;for whom birth is a supremely welcome mystery,the mystery of growing:which happens only and whenever we are faithful to ourselves. You and I wear the dangerous looseness of doom and find it becoming. Life,for eternal us,is now'and now is much to busy being a little more than everything to seem anything,catastrophic included.
Life,for mostpeople,simply isn't. Take the socalled standardofliving. What do mostpeople mean by "living"? They don't mean living. They mean the latest and closest plural approximation to singular prenatal passivity which science,in its finite but unbounded wisdom,has succeeded in selling their wives. If science could fail,a mountain's a mammal. Mostpeople's wives could spot a genuine delusion of embryonic omnipotence immediately and will accept no substitutes.
-luckily for us,a mountain is a mammal. The plusorminus movie to end moving,the strictly scientific parlourgame of real unreality,the tyranny conceived in misconception and dedicated to the proposition that every man is a woman and any woman is a king,hasn't a wheel to stand on. What their synthetic not to mention transparent majesty, mrsandmr collective foetus,would improbably call a ghost is walking. He isn't a undream of anaesthetized impersons, or a cosmic comfortstation,or a transcedentally sterilized lookiesoundiefeelietastiesmellie. He is a healthily complex,a naturally homogenous,citizen of immorality. The now of his each pitying free imperfect gesture,his any birth of breathing,insults perfected inframortally milleniums of slavishness. He is a little more than everything,he is democracy;he is alive:he is ourselves.
Miracles are to come. With you I leave a remembrance of miracles: they are somebody who can love and who shall be continually reborn,a human being;somebody who said to those near him,when his fingers would not hold a brush "tie it to my hand"--
nothing proving or sick or partial. Nothing false,nothing difficult or easy or small or colossal. Nothing ordinary or extraordinary,nothing emptied or filled,real or unreal;nothing feeble and known or clumsy and guessed. Everywhere tints childrening,innocent spontaneaous,true. Nowhere possibly what flesh and impossibly such a garden,but actually flowers which breasts are amoung the very mouths of light. Nothing believed or doubted;brain over heart, surface:nowhere hating or to fear;shadow,mind without soul. Only how measureless cool flames of making;only each other building always distinct selves of mutual entirely opening;only alive. Never the murdered finalities of wherewhen and yesno,impotent nongames of wrongright and rightwrong;never to gain or pause,never the soft adventure of undoom,greedy anguishes and cringing ecstasies of inexistence;never to rest and never to have;only to grow.
Always the beautiful answer who asks a more beautiful question"
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